Monday, March 21
it's very cold right now.. as in my fingers are freezing but my brain is feverish. feel like that a lot nowadays. life goes on as it never ends. i can't believe i'm doing this to myself. going cold turkey. i went to school today telling myself to forget what it's like to be infatuated with her. then guess who i saw from the side [again] during assembly? she looked so incredibly good that my heart kinda sank a bit. literally that is impossible. but it
did hurt a lot. looking at someone and knowing you have to stop it. don't even ask why it hurts. it's not like anything happened! yet. haha. but still. ouchhh.
i'll be having pe at 8 tmr when everyone else gets their posting. wow. i need to do some stuff now that i just am too lazy to do. heh. you crazy nutcase. it wouldn't be called a crush if it wasn't meant to hurt. i wish... i could do both wrong and right at the same time.. but two wrongs don't make a right and it's time to get a grip on myself.
i do hate me.
it must've been love.
10:04 pm
xoxo
